...and it will happen again...


DeviantART provides me with a showcase that is mine to use. I haven't been uploading my artwork recently because I haven't been really able to create anything in a long while. I do not even have an official website anymore. I have been exhausted frankly because I have been, everyday for the past several months, battling to get my life back together. I have been suffering from generalized anxiety disorder (gad), panic attacks and agoraphobia for about a year now. I was taking anti-depressant (actually SSRI / effexors) for 3 years until four months ago where I decided that all the side effects that I was getting with it were really too much. I could not bear it anymore. I want in the year 2009 to share with the world once more my creative mind in all shapes and forms that is possible. I will not force the process, but I will encourage myself to do some creative challenges. I will also be posting regular blog posts about artists that I love that are showing their work here.

I am confident that the year 2009 will be a rebirth for me!

Come and See...

I am cleani ng up my Deviantart space and making it more than a decent Art Showcase for myself. I guess before I wasn't really paying attention to all the amazing improvements that have been made. Humm I am liking this a lot!!!

All of this has happened before and it will happen again

Why not go for it?

I am at work right now and I wish i was anywhere but here. I want to be somewhere with my laptop, my graphic tablet, my camera and good music. i would like to be with nice creative people. I would like to be with stimulating people right now. I would like to be with either Yan, Jackson or Robert spending a good time. Dammit. anything but here. I have texts that I need to transfert on the computer and update here. I have the newer version of The Chronicles of Crimsublime to complete and put online. Instead of Htnl pages leading to the blog, its gonna be the other way around. I mean anyway what part is updated almost everyday? what part do people are more likely to bookmark? well the blog.. so here we go. Now I work as that as my central point. But I got to figure out what happens with the webhosting. i have paid it until august. Can I get a refound? that would be swell. especially because I found free webhosting for artist.

I have been able to at last find in the last two weeks a conductor string for my artwork so it has a structure when I present it with the world.

Ok so Later on tonite I am gonna be making a major Thank you and comment thingy for people that I have used stock photo from. Sadly I realise that older work I have done when I was at work, well I don't have the name of the person... So if you see one of your stock and I did not notify you, please tell me so I can rectify the entry and credit you

So I have been in work stop for about a month and a half because I have been quite sick for the past year and I had enough of going to work anyway in that state. I ended up sleeping at this hospital with morphine last week. I have past a lot of tests (thanks to the fact that I ended up at the hospital I would have had to wait til january to see someone) they still dont know what I have but possibly after tomorrow the insurance might not want to pay. (oh I actually got the initial demand this week from the doctor cause he was in vacation and forgot to give it back to me so I could be paid) So whatever. I will be quiting my job if I have to go back that soon. anyway I am not planning on going back ever. In july i am moving back to quebec city. I am sick and tired of montreal its gre, dull and full f shit. I have been creating like a mad women in various mediums. got our connection. lotsa download. I am still sick maybe but at last I am free. truly free to be all I want and to live under my own terms...